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volleyhun_06
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Birthday: 9/3/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: --Volleyball
--Guys
--Anime
--PS2, XBox, etc.
--Friends
--Singing
--Writing
--Reading
--Computer games
--Theatre
Expertise: I twirl baton! Hehe, and I play volleyball pretty well. And people say I have a pretty voice. I'm an organization freak so I do that pretty well and I'm a pretty good cook.
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  AshleyDreamz
MSN: volleyhun_06@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  volleyhun_06
Member Since:
3/18/2005
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| Soooo planning is coming along. The first weekend of October, Ricky and I are going cake tasting AND having our engagement pictures taken! Woot! Oh btw, we have a photographer. She did my cousin's wedding and her prices are amazing. She hasn't been doing it long but I've seen her work :)
It's a two hour long session. She goes to the Rehearsal dinner and is at the wedding ALL day :) which is amazing because you have no idea how many photographers charge by the hour. Sooooo expensive. We also get a few coffee table books(one for us and some for our parents), aaaand...I don't remember what else haha.
The goals to get accomplished right now are cutting down our HUGE guest list. Like seriously....too big. 300+. And that's not even everyone yet, we are still thinking of people :S I figured we would have a lot but not that many.
At this moment, we are pretty sure that we are having my family do the catering because hiring a caterer is SOOO expensive and seriously, my family are better cooks anyway and they have already offered to do whatever I want. Plus the reception is going to be more like a late lunch and not a dinner because the ceremony starts at 12:30...sooooo we are going to have family cook because it's not going to need to be so formal.
Other than that, not much has been done. I'll keep ya updated! Oh and I guess I should say something about stuff other than wedding. Classes are going ok. I'm tired of them already. I think it's worse this year though because all I want to do is get married....the school year couldn't be over fast enough for me right now. Um...what else...I'm trying to convince Ricky into moving away from Anderson after I graduate (which sadly is another year after this school year) and have him going to Seminary somewhere OTHER than AU. I'm soooo tired of living here it's ridiculous. I'm trying to talk him into moving to Chicago but I don't think he's thrilled about the idea of not really being able to drive his car as often. Sooo. Kentucky is another option as Ashbury...Asbury...I don't know, something like that. It's near Lexington I believe.
I just want to travel and live other places while we have the chance. Unfortunately, Ricky would rather live in Lima for the rest of his life. Uck. I hope that does NOT happen. No thank you. I wouldn't mind living in Cbus...just NOT in a small-ass town that has nooooooothing.
I'll update soon with wedding plans :) I'm sure you're all DYING to know every detail. Hah.
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| Well I guess I should update what's going on right now.
Things are going MUCH better than my last post. Everyone is finally getting into wedding mode :) Maybe it just took a little while for the idea to set in? I have no clue.
I think another contributing factor was that we went wedding dress shopping July 3rd :) :) :) We as in my mom, Ricky's mom, my aunt Christal, my sister and myself of course. We went to two places in Columbus. First was Wendy's Bridal and then David's Bridal. I'm so glad Wendy's was our first stop because the experience there was so great. The dresses were beautiful and thankfully (and you'll see why later) there were no kids allowed in the store. The dressing rooms were big (which they would seem too big for a normal dressing room but a normal dressing room would be too small for those big dresses! And to fit two people in. I had a consultant that helped me pick and try on dresses, she put on veils and gave me tiaras and flowers so I could better envision myself in the dress. We had a lot of space and a huge mirror in front of the little pedestal thingies so we could see from all angles. Also a big thing for me that Wendy's had but David's didn't was a mirror in the dressing room. It was important to me to be able to see the dress on myself before seeing the faces of the people I was with and let them sway my first vision of myself in a gown.
David's however was sooooo hectic. All the dresses were in these plastic bags so it made it realllly hard to find anything. There were kids running all around, especially around the dressing room (which I know this sounds mean but I really hated having all these kids running around while I was trying to have this experience). The dressing rooms were TINY and there was no mirror in the dressing room :( However, I did find my wedding dress at David's despite all the rest. It's GORGEOUS. But of course, I'm partial and to each their own. Thankfully, my mom decided to keep it at their house in Cbus, because if I took it back to Indiana, I fear I would just stare at it every day haha.
Anywho. After that day, wedding planning was like put into full gear :) much to my excitement. FINALLY. Ricky and I are going back to Lima this upcoming Thursday to view the reception hall and HOPEFULLY meet with a caterer. I'm just so excited and can't wait until next June. It seems far away but so far, the time has just FLEW BY. Honestly, everyone told me that it would but I didn't believe them. I think it's because there is SO much involved in planning a wedding and so time just gets away from you. I can't imagine how faster it will go once I have classes AND work. Gah.
Oh and in other good news, Ricky and I bought our first big item together. A queen bed :) It's amazing. And my mom bought us our bedding, which is beautful. Chocolate brown comforter, champagne colored 300 count Egyptian cotton sheets. And the comforter has that damask pattern inprinted in it, and you can barely see it unless you look closely because it's just got a little shine to it and thats it.
Well, I think that's about it. I could write every day about wedding stuff I'm sure. You just never realize how much is really involved. However, I'm going to stop myself...for now haha. I should probably get offline anyway, I have a LOT of cleaning to do. I told Ricky to clean up my room so the movers could fit the bed in the room and you know what he does? He stuffs, and I mean literally stuffs, everything in my closets so that when I open them, a bunch of stuff falls out. Haha. Men.
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| This may seem pathetic to most people who read this but it's going to be hard to really explain how it feels without...a person actually having to feel we that it's like.
When I imagined getting engaged and then married after that, I was expecting so many things that just didn't happen. I was expecting people to get excited, I was expecting my mother to instantly go into wedding mode, I was expecting a fiance who cared at least a little about the wedding itself. Honestly, I don't think that's much to ask for.
Instead, I get a less-than-thrilled get together with my friends (during which we only discussed the event of me getting engaged for a whole five minutes), a mother who is too stressed about other things to even get excited (all she can think about is how much its going to cost her) and a fiance who has done NOTHING I've asked him to do. The after-engagement happiness lasted a great two to four weeks during which we spoke about the wedding but it's died out since then.
This is NOT how it's supposed to be. The ONLY person who cares to hear about my wedding plans is my aunt, whom I am extremely grateful for but she's not my mother....she's not the one I talk to every day. Oh and did I mention that my mom wanted us to wait until NEXT FALL? That's like a year and a half... My dad is practically acting like the engagement didn't even take place and my sister has no desire to even talk about something she doesn't believe in.
So woohoo...I'm gettin married and no one really cares. That's just fabulous. Maybe my sister is right, maybe getting married is just a stupid tradition in which people get to spend lots of money and be the center of attention to just express what we already know, that we are committed to one another.
It's not like Ricky has been a complete jerk or anything. I just don't want to have to be the bride that nags her fiance to do things. I want him to WANT to do things. I want him to be excited about getting married (other than just for the sex that comes afterwards). He claims it's not the reason, but I just get this feeling that it's what he's most excited about. He thinks I'm ridiculous for wanting to start planning for a wedding that's over a year away. I'M A WOMAN for goodness sake, this is what I've waited my whole life for. Of-freakin-course I want to start planning. The sad thing is that I haven't even been planning that much with anyone but myself. I have been doing SUCH a good job at not talking about the wedding for months now. I figured when the time came, people would want to talk about it as long as I didn't nag them. Well that's not the case.
All I want is a little excitement from my parents (or even if they would acknowledge the wedding at all, that would be great), actual caring from my friends, and my fiance taking a little initiative to do things for me...bring up the wedding because he has to know that it would make me happy to finally get to talk about it. I asked him to do his guest list, just a rough draft like a month ago, and has he started it? No.
Fuck this. I don't need this shit. It pisses me off so bad I just want to call the whole thing off. I'm supposed to be happy...not completely upset and guilty about bringing up wedding plans. Gah, I love the kid so much...all I want is a little excitement on his end for something other than the wedding night.
Whatever. I just want to go somewhere far away and not come back. Italy maybe, or California...I know, two odd places to say but they are two places that I'd love to visit and a freaking long way from here.
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| Things have been going pretty well lately. Finishing up the semester which I'm EXTREMELY thankful for. I just hope I can pass my two hard classes. At midterm, I had C's in my business law class and my finance class. But I was getting good grades in my accounting and images of Jesus class. I'm very excited that Easter break is this week because I've only been back from Spring break for two weeks but I'm already tired of school.
Sadly, this will be my last holiday in my house back in Lima because my parents are signing papers today or tomorrow so it will be someone elses :( I'm really sad about it but since my mom's job moved to Columbus, it just had to happen. She couldn't keep staying in a hotel during the week and only be home on weekends. But this means for the next few weekends, I'm probably going to be home helping them pack because I think they have to be out by the end of April or something like that. AND I have to figure out how and where I'm going to keep some of the furniture from our house that my parents are giving me. They have nowhere to store it and we are probably already going to have enough to put in a storage unit and might not have room for everything I want to keep.
But I'm looking forward to the summer. Brit Hefner will be moving in with me and we're going to have a grand old time :) Cookouts and all sorts of fun. We can't wait to go shopping together to decorate the house. She has such great decorating taste too! I was going to take summer classes but financially I just can't afford it. So I'm just going to work through the summer and will have to go an extra semester unfortunately. Soooo I won't be graduated when Ricky and I get married like we'd hoped. But oh well. It's not a big deal because he'll be in Seminary at AU so I'm in no hurry PLUS we should get more financial aide once we're married.
On top of all of that, I have to get a new car because mine died. Gah. Life is way too crazy right now. All I want to do is enjoy the summer and relax so I can plan my wedding :) It's so hard to concentrate on other things when that's all I want to do.
PS. I'm going wedding dress shopping in July when my sis comes home! I'm SOOOOO excited! I think it will feel real once I get the dress :) not that it doesn't feel real but....it was seem closer I guess. It's sooooo far away. Over a year! Boo....but it had to be that way. Guess it will be really well planned haha.
I'll write soon, I gotta run to the library now and print off a paper before I meet Ricky for Chapel at 10.
Seeya!
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| This is truly one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard and I just wanted to share it with all of you. It's been in my head...pretty much all of my life haha. Well at least since the first day I heard it. It's sad but now when I listen to songs I think about whether they would fit well in my wedding reception or not. You can bet this one is definitely going to be one of them :)
Plus I've been looking forward to going home for part of Spring Break. I miss home.
Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so alone
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light
If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
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